It's been a tough week and a half and I'm trying to get back some routine in my life. Getting back to normal is probably what comes to mind but normal doesn't seem normal anymore. Not yet anyway.
I went back to work today and spent the time getting back up to speed on what's been happening. It was good. I was busy and didn't have time to think about anything but the job at hand. Last week seems a blur to me. We had alot of family time and made decisions and did things as a family. It was especially comforting. On Saturday night Carly and I slept over with Aileen and the girls, and Alex stayed at my sister's house.
Both Jennifer and Dad stayed with me for a couple of days, and on Tuesday I had an urge to visit my grandmother and Mum and Reg were there (obviously had the same urge for family). When it's too late we realise how little we see some family members, always busy and rapt up in our own lives.
This has also been a week of introspection and re-evaluation. Graham's passing has instilled in me the importance of making time for other people. Suddenly posting to my website doesn't seem so important and has taken a back-seat, and I prefer to sit with the kids in front of the television than sit in my room at the computer. I feel like I've been selfishly isolating myself from them.
Zeke had a birthday party on June 24 that was a lovely diversion from the grieving and sorrow. His smiles and laughter were such a comfort.
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